218.1

It is amazing how one bad choice (or epic fuck-up depending on my state of mind) can screw up progress and forward momentum spanning two full weeks.  Today is the first day that my weight has been down since the end of June.  My oil-bomb potato breakfast really messed up my tummy for days, and then messed up my state of mind for more days.  I didn't count calories perfectly on 4 different days over these last 2 weeks as a result of that breakfast 2 Mondays ago, and so I know I had more than my 1200 allotment.   This has left me feeling very negatively about myself, my progress, and my desire to even keep up with trying to get healthy.  I have been contemplating just getting a nice high quality loaf of bread and having myself a mouth party even though I know that thus would begin a downward spiral that I may not be able to crawl out of.

This is addiction.  And I hate it.

It is really unfair that people can enjoy food in a safe and healthy way, and I am punished by bad brain chemistry, or genetics, or just a poor upbringing around food so much so that I can't just enjoy the thing that I enjoy the most.

I'm not sure that this current temper tantrum is quite over yet, but I am done writing about it for today.  I am just mad.

218.8

I am not too pleased with how the weekend went. I had guests over on Saturday night where I made a decision not to count calories and def overate because of it (but it was all whole food, plant based so at least I have that going for me). Then I had a last-minute surprise visit from my brother and his family and ended up out to breakfast with them where the only thing on the menu I could eat was hash brown potatoes and a side of fruit. I haven't had a single drop of oil since February and then basically had a plate of grease for breakfast. I still feel disgusting. I have been so tired, queasy, grumpy, and - tmi - pretty bad digestion issues for 3 days in a row. Even Smooth Move tea didn't help move things along. So 'bloated' is an understatement and constant tummy discomfort has become my reality.

LESSON LEARNED.

And its my weekly weigh in. I am up 0.2 lbs. I am not surprised and very disappointed with myself =(

06/28: 218.6
06/29: 218.5 (-0.1)
06/30: 218.4 (-0.1)
7/01: 218.4 (0.0)
7/02: 218.7 (+0.3)
7/03: no data
7/04: 219 (+0.3)
7/05: 218.8 (-0.2) [week: +0.2]

218.4

Missed my 10 lb goal for the month by 0.4 lbs. bleeee

RECAP:
Feb 1: 253.6 (re-start)
Mar 1: 252 (-1.6)
April 1: 245 (-7)
May 1: 239.7 (-5.3)

JUNE
06/01: 228 (-11.7)
06/02: 227 (-1.0)
06/03: 226.9 (-0.1)
06/04: 227.1 (+0.2)
06/05: 229.1 (+2.0)
06/06: 226.6 (-2.5)
06/07: 226.0 (-0.6) [week: -1.9]
06/08: 225.7 (-0.3)
06/09: 224.2 (-1.5)
06/10: 225.7 (+1.5)
06/11: 225.9 (+0.2)
06/12: 226.5 (+0.6)
06/13: 226.1 (-0.4)
06/14: 223.8 (-2.3) [week -2.2]
06/15: 222.5 (-1.3)
06/16: 223.5 (+1.0)
06/17: 222.9 (-0.6)
06/18: no data
06/19: 227.4 (+4.5)
06/20: 222.1 (-5.3)
06/21: 222.2 (+0.1) [week: -1.6]
06/22: 219.5 (-2.7)
06/23: 219.8 (+0.3)
06/24: no data
06/25: 220.5 (+0.7)
06/26: 221.0 (+0.5)
06/27: 219.9 (-1.1)
06/28: 218.6 (-1.3) [week: -3.6]
06/29: 218.5 (-0.1)
06/30: 218.4 (-0.1)

218.5

I have a long weekend with plans coming up so making and sticking to these meal plans is going to be a tough one.  But, making meal plans is all part of the process so I gotta do what I gotta do.

Friday 6/30-Tuesday 7/4
Breakfasts = Amys beans, avo, tomatoes, fruit
Lunch most days: Chile Verde with hominy and white beans, fruit
Dinner most days: sweet potato, steamed broccoli and cauli

Friday 6/30 movie date - bring blueberries and chili. There is a special Indian menu right now and there are vegan options.  I really want one of these, but I know it comes with breads and I'm afraid if I order, I am going to eat it, so I should really try to be strong :(

Saturday 7/1 - dinner w/ friends.  Mediterranean salad and crudites w/ humus. The fear of overeating because I will not be weighing and measuring is strong

218.6

Today is my Wednesday Weekly Weigh In and - WOW- I had a good week! The prior 2 weeks were pretty annoying due to an irregular cycle, but it got made up for now. I lost -drum roll please- ... 3.6 pounds this week!! Huzzah! I am hoping to hit my -10lbs/month goal for June, but only have 48 hours in which to meet it by losing another half pound, but hey, miracles sometimes happen. I find it so amazing that I am losing pounds at the same rate as the last time aroudn in 2010, but without any exercise at all this time. Weight loss really is all about what you put in your mouth (but, of course, I know fitness is mostly about exercise. I never claimed I was getting fit - HA!)

I am STILL having a really horrid time trying to get into the other self-care habits (journaling, meditation, etc) that SPT says I should be doing to help make this a lasting endeavor. I am trying though! I moved my journals and my book of meditations out of the bedroom (where I almost immediately fall asleep every night) out to my desk in the living room. I am going to try to get into the habit of doing that stuff last thing before going into the bedroom. Maybe it will help.

weekly recap:

06/21: 222.2 (+0.1)
06/22: 219.5 (-2.7)
06/23: 219.8 (+0.3)
06/24: no data
06/25: 220.5 (+0.7)
06/26: 221.0 (+0.5)
06/27: 219.9 (-1.1)
06/28: 218.6 (-1.3) [week: -3.6]

221.0

I had a good weekend food wise. I made that huge batch of Gazpacho which I highly recommend! It is so tasty and light and perfect for hot weather. This is the recipe I used: http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/a...recipe-1937573 It makes a HUGE portions for not many calories.  I had it along side of a bit of rice.

My new mantra "weight loss is not linear" (thanks 3FC user!!!!) is helping me stay sane watching the scale bounce around. Luckily it is always a downward trend even when there are daily bumps. I want to stop weighing daily, but I actually feel guilty if I don't, so mantra it is.


The workweek meal plan:

Breakfast: Almond Milk Latte, beans, avocado, tomato, strawberries
Lunch: big salad w/ beans, cucumbers, tomato - added Miso Soy Curls and Asian style dressing
Dinner: roasted red potato and steamed kale w/ hot mustard

219.5

This weekend's meal plan:

Breakfast: Overnight oats w/ chia, banana and berries
Lunch: Gazpacho topped with avocado and brown rice
Dinner: Sweet Potato stuffed w/ corn, black beans, and salsa and simple slaw

edit: got too hungry and didn't feel satisfied with the oats for breakfast, so I switched back to my beans and avo situation on Sat and Sun.

222.2

Well The Never Ending Period is still beleaguering me. As I suspected, just because it came a week early in no way indicated it would go away a week early, so here I am retaining water and hard-core jonesing for salt like a mad woman. I have been having bouillon instead of my hot tea, and pickles as part of my meal for the last 3 days. I don't even want to tell you what the scale is doing this week! But I will.  It's is 100% water-weight and I even feel puffy, especially in my fingers. I'm looking forward to next week when I will finally be able to see the work I put in this week pay off, because I sure as heck am not seeing it now.  Check this stupidness out:

06/14: 223.8
06/15: 222.5 (-1.3)
06/16: 223.5 (+1.0)
06/17: 222.9 (-0.6)
06/18:  (something around 227, I didn't bother to record it)
06/19: 227.4 (+4.5)
06/20: 222.1 (-5.3)
06/21: 222.2 (+0.1)

In the end, I am down 1.6 for the week which is just shy of my 2 lb goal.  I am really hoping that  next week will show a much bigger drop once I stop being so freaking hormone-y.

The period-munchies did a number to me this weekend too. I had guests over for a small dinner party and I made fixin's for DIY vegan tacos and nachos. I managed to stay strong and not have any tortillas and made myself a taco-salad instead (OK I had 1 broken chip for the taste.  It was good, but not good enough for me to ruin things by having more than that taste). But, I did not weigh and measure so I know I overate. I also munched on cherries and strawberries while we watched a movie (set up the outdoor projector and watched a movie under the stars. It was awesome!) and I know I WAY overate those.

I did have a talk with myself beforehand and decided that I would be a little looser that night with the understanding that the next day it was back on track no ifs, ands, or buts. I did not want this dinner to turn into a defeatist binge if it turned out I felt uncomfortable weighing my food in front of people. I forgive myself this small transgression, and I will move forward successfully for the rest of the week.

Last night I was either super-hungry, or I had acid-belly that felt like hunger.  I am not sure which it was but I ended up drinking 2 glasses of almond milk and then I had 2 mugs of bouillon.  It helped, but it also may be the cause of why I went up 0.1 lbs overnight instead of seeing a loss on the scale. I really need to stay strong - at least on Tuesday nights when I know I am doing my weekly weigh-in the next morning.

I am trying to incorporate some more of the the BLE strategies for successful weight-loss, namely, the parts that aren't food related but more spirit related.  I picked up a journal for my daily thoughts, a 5-year journal and a couple of meditation books.  These are activities that you are supposed to do in the AM and PM so to get into a routine of self-care.  So far I managed one of the PM activities, and then played catch-up for two nights in a row.  I really need to figure out how to make the habit stick as I really believe Susan has it figured out!

227.4

Meal plan for this work week:

Breakfast:
1.5 c. almond milk latte
1/4 can of Amy's vegetarian beans
1/4 avocado
1.5 tomatoes
1 white nectarine

Lunch:
Fajita salad with brown rice and black beans, lots of veg and salsa

Dinner:
5 oz steamed Kale
1 small potato
1 apple

Daily calories: 1083

6/21: lunch plans at Nourish Cafe

223.8

Eesh it's been 2 weeks since I blogged? Whoopsadoodles! I have been keeping up with daily check-ins at 3FC and in the last week a reddit forum for BLE users. So far it is just me and one person, but every little bit of accountability is great for me.

I have been SO HUNGRY the last 4-5 days. I am trying very hard to stay on track and not overeat. It is related to TOM, but dang it is so hard to control even though I know with my brain what is going on, my body is being a huge jerk. I couldn't help myself at the grocery in the end and bought 2 plums and a bag of cherries that were not on my pre-planned list last weekend. I managed to not go crazy and eat all the cherries, but I am disappointed that I couldn't mind-over-matter my burning desire to buy them when they weren't on my meal plans. This was also the first time in 7 weeks where I ate outside of designated mealtimes, which is a line I am trying not to cross in my quest to beat food addiction.

For whatever reason, I have had a LOT of energy the past few days. I am at my office 10.5 hours a day, and I have an hour commute each way on top of that. I am usually completely zonked out by the time I get home in the evenings. Normally, I just plop my butt down and play video games for a couple hours until bed time. But, Monday night I got home and ended up doing some serious gardening for about an hour and a half (and I hurt my hip doing it, but that's a whole 'nother thing). And then last night on my drive home I was pretty much dancing in my seat listening to music, and when I finally got home I immediately got my puppers ready for a walk and headed to the beach and ended up walking up the cliffs a bit too; I ended up being out and about for over an hour! So weird, but I am not complaining. I love it and I hope that it continues every day!!

Scale wise, with TOM coming a week early and plaguing me for what I expect will be the full two weeks, I have been ignoring the scale as it crept up up up. But this morning when I weighed I had dropped everything that I was holding onto, plus some, so my official total loss for the week is 2.2 pounds.

I did just watch a fabulous blog from Susan Pierce Thompson on building flexibility into rules which I think I am going to start employing. For example, that hard rule that I do not eat between meals that I have broken twice in the last week, I was very disappointed with myself even though it was just 5 cherries on one day, and two plums on the other. I think my new rule will be: I will will only eat at meals times 95% of the time. That way, if I eat a tad away from meal time, I haven't broken my rule and I can still be in my all-or-nothing mindset without falling off the wagon.

I am going to try to employ a few more of the BLE lifestyle suggestions.  I have had little inklings of just giving up and eating what I want in the last week (period related?  Maybe, but I don't like it!). I have followed the brightlines very closely, and the meal plan is really my own makings but it does follow the principles laid out in the book.  I am going to do the nightly journaling (3 things to be thankful for, 5 year journal, and nightly checklist).  I did buy some books of positive thinking for my morning routine, and I might do some meditation, but that might be a little cheesy for me yet.  I am def not going to start making my bed every day like her suggestion, at least not quite yet.  SO that is my next set of goals: make the evening journaling and the morning positivity part of my life.

Oh and my husband stopped me mid-stretch today to ask me how much weight I've lost because he can see it.  30 pounds mofo!

227.9

Well, looks like my total loss for May is 11.8 pounds.  That is amazing!  I think that sans exercise, this is the absolute best I can expect.  I can't eat less than I am already eating (never more than 1250, sometimes falling as low as 1050), and with my metabolism the fucked thing that it is, I am really happy that I even eeked out this much.  This months loss is all thanks to following the path of Bright Line Eating, and a Whole Foods, Plant Based diet that is sugar and oil free.  Whatever was watching out for me this month lending me strength and power, please don't leave me!!  And in the likely reality that my brain is just getting on board with my heart, you two stay in contact. I haven't been this happy with myself in a super long time ;)


RECAP:
Feb 1: 253.6 (starting)
Mar 1: 252 (-1.6)
April 1: 245 (-7)

MAY:
05/01: 239.7 (-5.3)
05/02: 237.2 (-2.5)
05/03: 236.9 (-0.3)
05/04: 236.6 (-0.3)
05/05: 235.5 (-1.1)
05/06: 235.8 (+0.3)
05/07: 237.4 (+1.6)
05/08: 235.8 (-1.6)
05/09: 236.0 (+0.2)
05/10: 234.6 (-1.4)
05/11: 235.6 (+1.0)
05/12: 236.4 (+0.8)
05/13: 234.9 (-1.5)
05/14: 236.7 (+1.8)
05/15: 235.2 (-1.5)
05/16: 233.6 (-1.6)
05/17: 233.4 (-0.2)
05/18: 232.3 (-1.1)
05/19: 232.2 (-0.1)
05/20: 231.0 (-1.2)
05/21: -
05/22: 232.8 (+1.8)
05/23: 230.4 (-2.4)
05/24: 230.9 (+0.5)
05/25: 229.3 (-1.6)
05/26: 229.8 (+0.5)
05/27: 230.2 (+0.4)
05/28: 230.0 (-0.2)
05/29: 227.9 (-2.1)
05/30: 227.4 (-0.5)
05/31: 227.9 (+.05)

230.4

I am so happy with the way things have been going for me food-wise this month. I know that I have been complaining about the scale jumping around a lot. While it is always depressing to see it do that I have been trying to remind myself that I know my food has been spot-on and I am feeling GREAT. I am trying to remind myself that the scale jumping is just water weight fluctuating and just keep plodding forward despite those jumps.

There is a week left in the month, and I am down over 9 pounds for May. It's amazing! I haven't felt this motivated or on track for years. I know what the factors are that are helping me this time, namely: changing the 'rules' I follow; fully submitting to this process; changing the type of food I eat; and checking in to you to keep me on track. Mentally and physically (current cramps notwithstanding...) I am just feeling on target

I am really looking forward to hitting the hiking trails again on a regular basis too. I told myself that as soon as I am in onderland, I am going to start up exercise again. There is a lot of recent research that has found that exercising while being on a limited calorie diet actually is quiet bad for your metabolism and will slow actual weight loss down slightly. And the old addage "you can't out-exercise bad eating" is 100% true. Experts are saying when you have a lot to lose (I do!!) it is better to get it off quicker and then add exercise as you approach goal. On top of that, I am fearful that if I am on the trails with bad feet at 200+ lbs, I am going to be in more danger of having my planar fasciitis flare up and ruin my plans. but the truth is I am getting super antsy to get out there again! I miss exercising when it felt good to do so, I just know it will work against me right now.

In not quite as happy news, my melancholy over the death of Chris Cornell continues. I don't understand why this is happening to me. I feel like the depressed teenager I was when I was first listening to them back in the 90s has come raging back in full force. I suppose it doesn't help that I keep listening to his music pretty much non-stop and am watching old documentaries and reading interviews that feature him or that era. I suppose that this too shall pass. Until then, I will continue to weep at odd moments interspersed with belting out (very badly and off key) my favorite Soundgarden songs.

232.3

The day I tried to live

I'm having a fairly hard time this morning dealing with the news of  the death of Chris Cornell.   I've been off and crying since 4:30am when I saw the news on my twitter feed. Also having a hard time articulating all the reasons this is so rough. The Seattle grunge scene is what I was all about back in the latter part of High School, around 1990-1992. I had the best friends and the best times figuring out who I was back then and the music I listened to and the concerts I saw were a huge part of my identity. Another piece of that died last night. 1991 was an amazing year for music: Pearl Jam's Ten in August, Nirvana's Nevermind in September, and Soundgarden's Badmotorfinger in October. Can you imagine? It was glorious. I even almost moved to Seattle instead of San Francisco because of the music I loved and the movie Singles which I was obsessed with (it was about the Seattle music scene and Chris Cornell and Eddie Vedder both had small parts in it). Badmotorfinger remains one of my favorite albums of all time. In fact, I got a new car 3 weeks ago and that was the first album I blasted to test out the new speakers. I saw Soundgarden several times in concert; Pearl Jam opened for them at one of them LOL. Chris Cornell's voice was just as polished and perfect live as it was on studio albums. He was really blessed with talent. I also think he was one of the most aesthetically beautiful men I have ever seen and he was aging marvelously. Everything about him was up my alley (I wish -HAH).

It makes the milestone of being back at a 100 lb loss this morning seem so insignificant.

Say hello to heaven, Chris.

233.6

I was fully expecting the scale to go back up based on the craziness this week, but nope! Down for two days in a row. What are the odds and how much do we all wish the answer was 100%?

 I take at least 96-144 oz of water every day during the week while at my office (and that is on top of 1-2 c. of coffee and 2-6 c. herbal tea, not to mention whatever water I also have at home). I just can't seem to slake my thirst. I know that is a sign of diabetes, but my blood tests show that that is not the issue. It might be the amount of sodium I eat - I season my food pretty heavily and this might just the consequence. Just wondering if it is a weight-losing thing, or if I should bring it up to my doc...

235.2

You know what is super freaking annoying? When you are trying super hard to stay on track (and I am on track; 1200 calories a day of WFPB meals with just a little wiggle up to 1350 or so on Saturday) but your body decides that it just wants to play teeter-totter with the scale. Look at this nonsense from the last week:

05/08: 235.8 (-1.6)
05/09: 236.0 (+0.2)
05/10: 234.6 (-1.4)
05/11: 235.6 (+1.0)
05/12: 236.4 (+0.8)
05/13: 234.9 (-1.5)
05/14: 236.7 (+1.8)
05/15: 235.2 (-1.5)

That's a net loss of 0.6, which I guess is nice (but should really be closer to a loss of 2 lbs according to the records of what I was losing last time around on this many calories per day) but omg the ups and downs are SOOOOOOOO disheartening. I am working so hard on keeping things out of my mouth that I shouldn't be eating! I really want to see the evidence on the scale and not have to continually reassure myself that I am doing good things for myself.

BOO

236

I have been wonderfully on track since I last checked in. In some cases, that took extraordinary measures, though. That said, my stupid weight bumped up over the last 4 days and hasn't come back down. I'm gonna go ahead and blame it on lack of enough water consumption again, same as last weekend.

There is an AWESOME movie theater in the city that serves a full dinner menu and full bar menu right to your movie seats while you are watching your show (we saw Guardians 2: so good!). I have come to associate going to the movies now with getting really nice yummy treats and have pretty much gone through their whole menu at this point. So, when I knew we were going to the movies I didn't want to be tempted so I pre-packed my lunch on Thursday night and smuggled it into the theater with me on Friday so that I could nosh on plan. It worked! I didn't feel the least bit like I was missing out, and I didn't have the guilt of snacking after the fact. Win-win!

And then yesterday I had a 9 hour meeting (omg, kill me...) where they served both breakfast and lunch, but again, I packed ahead and brought it all with me. I had to explain to a table full of people what Nutritatian eating was. I got a lot of sympathetic looks and a lot of "I could never do that...".

236.6

Man I am having such a depressing day. One of my brother's dogs died in her sleep last night for no particular reason. She wasn't ill, or old, or displaying any sort of behavior that indicated she was uncomfortable. There was no vomiting or any kind of indication of anything. They went to bed, and woke up in the morning to find her curled up outside, head on paws, over the rainbow bridge. She didn't normally sleep outside; I believe she knew she was going to go and so let herself out in the night to not die inside as a final gift to his family. Bah now I'm crying again.

Anyway, it is hitting me hard (all doggie deaths do whether I know them or not) and usually this sort of emotion drives me to the refrigerator but so far I am staying strong and not really feeling that pull. My determination to stay on plan is going to trump my emotions for once.

236.9 - BLE

Last weekend (April 22-23) while looking for recipes for my meal prepping, I stumbled on a recipe that I was keen on, and then stayed on the bloggers site to read what her diet plan looked like.  I had 'decided' to really go back and try to re-lose this weight back in February, and I was coming up on my typical 2-months-time-to-give-up expiration date that happens every damn time I have tried dieting since 2012.  In fact, I was already slipping back into bad eating habits.

This blog is where I was first introduced to Bright Line Eating.

The more I dug into it and tried to figure out what it was about, the more excited I got.  This mindset was precisely what I had done back in 2010 when I lost 180 pounds.  Only, back in 2010, I was on my own, had no idea why it was working, and was just winging it based on my best guess (and did stupid stuff like cutting out fat entirely which made me lose my hair...)

The entirety of that weekend I spent watching every video I could find, read every review, and posted on 3FC looking for BLE partners.  This is where I figured out that this was a new thing.  I bought the book and was anxiously awaiting Amazon to deliver before I realized it literally had been released in that same week - it was just a coincidence that I had stumbled on it.

The author/scientist behind BLE offers a (much too pricey for me) 8-week boot-camp to launch people into this way of thinking about food and the right way to eat to conquer food addiction. So I decided to wait on the book, and continue watching videos to try to do this.

That week (last week) I was on my plan perfectly as I am each week.  It is always the weekends the fuck me up.  But with the help of the videos (still was waiting for the book at that time) I had my first perfect eating weekend following the BLE guidelines as I knew them. I was so proud of myself!

Monday of this week my book was delivered.  I have been spending my lunch hour laying out on the grass in the quad reading.  I cannot emphasize enough how valuable this book is to me.  Here was information - backed up with study after scientific study - about why what I did before worked, and why it was going to work for me again.  Only this time, I feel like it is going to be permanent.  And more importantly, it made me truly recognize that I am a food addict and is providing me the tools to kick the addiction.

I am an academic at heart.  I went to graduate school and work now at UCSF for a doctoral program.  I have always loved learning and place a high value on science, study, and intelligence.  This book has so much of the science behind food issues and conquering them that I feel like I found something that is speaking directly to me.

Today is the mid point of week 2.  I can't wait to see where I am come week 3, 4, 5, and onwards.

I highly encourage anyone with food issues to give it a look and let me know what you think - I'm still looking for my BLE community!

237.2

Yeah, that woosh definitely wasn't real LOL.

From my 3FC posting this morning (how lazy am I that I can't make a fresh blog entry and instead just copy/paste what I already wrote somewhere else hahahahah)

I think my whoosh from last week is being revisited (despite that it all came back since then). I lost 2.5 lbs overnight LOL. The scale is so ridiculous. I hate depending on it for my little (but much needed!!!!) ego boosts in the mornings where I am actually down. Yesterday I drank 144 oz of water before leaving my office - I think that might have had something to do with it.

Side note on a cool scale thing and accountability: I bought a Withings scale back in March. It sends your weight for the day (and other data) to your phone via bluetooth so that you can look at reports and graphs over time. It is really satisfying! If you have weigh-loss buddies, you can also set it up to send the data to them and they can cheer you on.  Then I linked my Withings data to my MyFitnessPal account, so now my weight is sent right to MFP, and my calories are sent to my phone so I can compare the two data sets. And then I made a MyFitnessPal weight tracker (See my signature) that I never have to update. As soon as I step on the scale in the morning, my tracker automagically updates here! We live in the future!

236.6

Nice woosh this morning, but I do wonder if it is the real deal.  Guess I will know tomorrow morning!

I went through and updated some pages that are linked in the tabs at the top, namely the Plan, Goals, and Measurements pages.  It was all stuff I was going to write in my post today, but I've been working on it for over an hour so I'm not going to reiterate here.  My future self (and only reader of this blog) will just have to go back and look at those pages for where my head was today by looking there!

I have a Withings scale which I got back in April, and now I linked the scale's app to my Fitday page, which is linked to my tracker here on the top of this page.  It is so crazy that I weigh myself in the morning, and anyone who looks at this page or my posts on 3fc immediately know how much I weigh. Talk about serious, immediate accountability!!

241.9 - ReBooting is Hard to Do

I made the sad decision to update my signature on 3FC to more accurately reflect my journey.  It used to be so full of progress and things to be impressed with =(  I just wanted to preserve it here so that I could take honest looks back one day:

Start Date: January 4, 2010, 332 lbs.
100 pounds down: August 10, 2010
Onderland!: December 12, 2010
One Year later: 137 lbs lost
Half of me (166 lbs. lost & weight): June 5, 2011
ReStart February 2017 253.6 
Normal BMI (140 lbs):
High maintenance weight 132:
Low maintenance weight (GOAL) 127:

So now it only has what currently matters:
Start Date: January 4, 2010 - 332 lbs.
Lowest Weight: December 19 2012 - 143.6 lbs.
ReStart! February 2017 - 253.6 lbs.
Goals: 'Normal' BMI, 140 lbs // Maintenance weight, 132 lbs


le-motherfuckin'-sigh

242.1

Working on something new; stay tuned for more info!

For now, suffice it to say that I gained up to 256, but have lost 14ish pounds since trying to make positive changes again.