8

This morning's weight: 309.8

For some reason, seeing that 0 in the 309 has been a huge thrill for me. Too cool! It inspired me to make more goals so I now have 3 sets of goals to have fun crossing things off of (see my Goal Tracking tag). I might even make make some more arbitrary goals because crossing stupiud things off a page feels like I am really doing something.

I had "loads" of fun buying new jeans yesterday. Big not. I really saw the fat pouches on my thighs for the first time. They are like droopy soft balls. How can husband stand to look at all that and still say I am sexy and beautiful? He says "it's all part of you so I don't care". The man is a fucking super hero. How did I get so lucky?

7

This morning's weight: 312.4

I've grown weary of my weight jumping up and down. It seems as though it is dependent on what I am wearing so I made the bold (you see what I did there?) decision to do my morning weigh in in undies only. I know this is going to set me up for disappointment when I go to the docs office and have to have clothes on. I will just have to deal with such things.

Writing long hand makes my hands hurt.

Seeing the weight gain over the course of three years when looking back on my medical records (now that the arrived) is shocking. Also shocking: either all of my docs in the past over stated on their forms how much they actually talked to me about weight loss and dieting, or I really was just not able to hear it. Their notes look like BS, but I am betting I turned a deaf ear.

6

This morning's weight: 314.2

It was discouraging to see the scale not move at all for 2 days or move up several ounces. I think I must have misread or something on the 19th. Oh well, at least it is down now. Restarting my food blog was a great idea too (note, this is a separate blog from this one). I am also debating moving my journal into an online, public blog (another note: all of the posts prior to Jan 29 are typed up retrospectively from my hard copy journal). I don't know if i want to be that public with this though. I would want to be anonymous for now, which means a rigmarole of getting new gmail addys and resubbing to 3FC under a new name.

5

This morning's weight: upswing

Some of my enthusiasm for keeping up with all of this (and yes it is cumbersome, but I think this is what I need to actually keep going) is waning, but not the dedication. I got on the scale this morning and the numbers where higher than the previous day. I chose not to write down the record of the weight as I am sure it is due to the clothes I am wearing as i didn't screw up my calorie count all weekend. Plus, I did lots of extra activity what with moving the computer desks around.

4

This morning's weight: 320.2

Maybe I am getting really thirsty from using too much salt in my cooking? I am being very heavy handed with the seasoning since I have cut out the fat and bread. Something to ponder...

3

This morning's weight: 321.6

I had a weird heart palpitation last night. I read it might be related to the hypothyroidism. Still it is worrisome. Also, I have been really thirsty of late. It is actually quite annoying. Oh, but my poops have been magnificent. I think my intestines are getting rid of a lot of junk and at the same time basking in the glory of daily fresh vegetables.

2

This morning's weight: no scale yet

I had a dream last night about how many calories were actually in the lamb I ate. I am disappointed that yesterdays calorie count was at 1600 yesterday. I guess I need to try to keep it in perspective that anything less than 2700 calories is good. But still... I hope my scale comes today. I need some more encouragement. This is hard.