Meal plan for this work week:
Breakfast:
1.5 c. almond milk latte
1/4 can of Amy's vegetarian beans
1/4 avocado
1.5 tomatoes
1 white nectarine
Lunch:
Fajita salad with brown rice and black beans, lots of veg and salsa
Dinner:
5 oz steamed Kale
1 small potato
1 apple
Daily calories: 1083
6/21: lunch plans at Nourish Cafe
tracker
Monday, June 19, 2017
Wednesday, June 14, 2017
223.8
Eesh it's been 2 weeks since I blogged? Whoopsadoodles! I have been keeping up with daily check-ins at 3FC and in the last week a reddit forum for BLE users. So far it is just me and one person, but every little bit of accountability is great for me.
I have been SO HUNGRY the last 4-5 days. I am trying very hard to stay on track and not overeat. It is related to TOM, but dang it is so hard to control even though I know with my brain what is going on, my body is being a huge jerk. I couldn't help myself at the grocery in the end and bought 2 plums and a bag of cherries that were not on my pre-planned list last weekend. I managed to not go crazy and eat all the cherries, but I am disappointed that I couldn't mind-over-matter my burning desire to buy them when they weren't on my meal plans. This was also the first time in 7 weeks where I ate outside of designated mealtimes, which is a line I am trying not to cross in my quest to beat food addiction.
For whatever reason, I have had a LOT of energy the past few days. I am at my office 10.5 hours a day, and I have an hour commute each way on top of that. I am usually completely zonked out by the time I get home in the evenings. Normally, I just plop my butt down and play video games for a couple hours until bed time. But, Monday night I got home and ended up doing some serious gardening for about an hour and a half (and I hurt my hip doing it, but that's a whole 'nother thing). And then last night on my drive home I was pretty much dancing in my seat listening to music, and when I finally got home I immediately got my puppers ready for a walk and headed to the beach and ended up walking up the cliffs a bit too; I ended up being out and about for over an hour! So weird, but I am not complaining. I love it and I hope that it continues every day!!
Scale wise, with TOM coming a week early and plaguing me for what I expect will be the full two weeks, I have been ignoring the scale as it crept up up up. But this morning when I weighed I had dropped everything that I was holding onto, plus some, so my official total loss for the week is 2.2 pounds.
I did just watch a fabulous blog from Susan Pierce Thompson on building flexibility into rules which I think I am going to start employing. For example, that hard rule that I do not eat between meals that I have broken twice in the last week, I was very disappointed with myself even though it was just 5 cherries on one day, and two plums on the other. I think my new rule will be: I will will only eat at meals times 95% of the time. That way, if I eat a tad away from meal time, I haven't broken my rule and I can still be in my all-or-nothing mindset without falling off the wagon.
I have been SO HUNGRY the last 4-5 days. I am trying very hard to stay on track and not overeat. It is related to TOM, but dang it is so hard to control even though I know with my brain what is going on, my body is being a huge jerk. I couldn't help myself at the grocery in the end and bought 2 plums and a bag of cherries that were not on my pre-planned list last weekend. I managed to not go crazy and eat all the cherries, but I am disappointed that I couldn't mind-over-matter my burning desire to buy them when they weren't on my meal plans. This was also the first time in 7 weeks where I ate outside of designated mealtimes, which is a line I am trying not to cross in my quest to beat food addiction.
For whatever reason, I have had a LOT of energy the past few days. I am at my office 10.5 hours a day, and I have an hour commute each way on top of that. I am usually completely zonked out by the time I get home in the evenings. Normally, I just plop my butt down and play video games for a couple hours until bed time. But, Monday night I got home and ended up doing some serious gardening for about an hour and a half (and I hurt my hip doing it, but that's a whole 'nother thing). And then last night on my drive home I was pretty much dancing in my seat listening to music, and when I finally got home I immediately got my puppers ready for a walk and headed to the beach and ended up walking up the cliffs a bit too; I ended up being out and about for over an hour! So weird, but I am not complaining. I love it and I hope that it continues every day!!
Scale wise, with TOM coming a week early and plaguing me for what I expect will be the full two weeks, I have been ignoring the scale as it crept up up up. But this morning when I weighed I had dropped everything that I was holding onto, plus some, so my official total loss for the week is 2.2 pounds.
I did just watch a fabulous blog from Susan Pierce Thompson on building flexibility into rules which I think I am going to start employing. For example, that hard rule that I do not eat between meals that I have broken twice in the last week, I was very disappointed with myself even though it was just 5 cherries on one day, and two plums on the other. I think my new rule will be: I will will only eat at meals times 95% of the time. That way, if I eat a tad away from meal time, I haven't broken my rule and I can still be in my all-or-nothing mindset without falling off the wagon.
I am going to try to employ a few more of the BLE lifestyle suggestions. I have had little inklings of just giving up and eating what I want in the last week (period related? Maybe, but I don't like it!). I have followed the brightlines very closely, and the meal plan is really my own makings but it does follow the principles laid out in the book. I am going to do the nightly journaling (3 things to be thankful for, 5 year journal, and nightly checklist). I did buy some books of positive thinking for my morning routine, and I might do some meditation, but that might be a little cheesy for me yet. I am def not going to start making my bed every day like her suggestion, at least not quite yet. SO that is my next set of goals: make the evening journaling and the morning positivity part of my life.
Oh and my husband stopped me mid-stretch today to ask me how much weight I've lost because he can see it. 30 pounds mofo!
Wednesday, May 31, 2017
227.9
Well, looks like my total loss for May is 11.8 pounds. That is amazing! I think that sans exercise, this is the absolute best I can expect. I can't eat less than I am already eating (never more than 1250, sometimes falling as low as 1050), and with my metabolism the fucked thing that it is, I am really happy that I even eeked out this much. This months loss is all thanks to following the path of Bright Line Eating, and a Whole Foods, Plant Based diet that is sugar and oil free. Whatever was watching out for me this month lending me strength and power, please don't leave me!! And in the likely reality that my brain is just getting on board with my heart, you two stay in contact. I haven't been this happy with myself in a super long time ;)
RECAP:
Feb 1: 253.6 (starting)
Mar 1: 252 (-1.6)
April 1: 245 (-7)
MAY:
05/01: 239.7 (-5.3)
05/02: 237.2 (-2.5)
05/03: 236.9 (-0.3)
05/04: 236.6 (-0.3)
05/05: 235.5 (-1.1)
05/06: 235.8 (+0.3)
05/07: 237.4 (+1.6)
05/08: 235.8 (-1.6)
05/09: 236.0 (+0.2)
05/10: 234.6 (-1.4)
05/11: 235.6 (+1.0)
05/12: 236.4 (+0.8)
05/13: 234.9 (-1.5)
05/14: 236.7 (+1.8)
05/15: 235.2 (-1.5)
05/16: 233.6 (-1.6)
05/17: 233.4 (-0.2)
05/18: 232.3 (-1.1)
05/19: 232.2 (-0.1)
05/20: 231.0 (-1.2)
05/21: -
05/22: 232.8 (+1.8)
05/23: 230.4 (-2.4)
05/24: 230.9 (+0.5)
05/25: 229.3 (-1.6)
05/26: 229.8 (+0.5)
05/27: 230.2 (+0.4)
05/28: 230.0 (-0.2)
05/29: 227.9 (-2.1)
05/30: 227.4 (-0.5)
05/31: 227.9 (+.05)
RECAP:
Feb 1: 253.6 (starting)
Mar 1: 252 (-1.6)
April 1: 245 (-7)
MAY:
05/01: 239.7 (-5.3)
05/02: 237.2 (-2.5)
05/03: 236.9 (-0.3)
05/04: 236.6 (-0.3)
05/05: 235.5 (-1.1)
05/06: 235.8 (+0.3)
05/07: 237.4 (+1.6)
05/08: 235.8 (-1.6)
05/09: 236.0 (+0.2)
05/10: 234.6 (-1.4)
05/11: 235.6 (+1.0)
05/12: 236.4 (+0.8)
05/13: 234.9 (-1.5)
05/14: 236.7 (+1.8)
05/15: 235.2 (-1.5)
05/16: 233.6 (-1.6)
05/17: 233.4 (-0.2)
05/18: 232.3 (-1.1)
05/19: 232.2 (-0.1)
05/20: 231.0 (-1.2)
05/21: -
05/22: 232.8 (+1.8)
05/23: 230.4 (-2.4)
05/24: 230.9 (+0.5)
05/25: 229.3 (-1.6)
05/26: 229.8 (+0.5)
05/27: 230.2 (+0.4)
05/28: 230.0 (-0.2)
05/29: 227.9 (-2.1)
05/30: 227.4 (-0.5)
05/31: 227.9 (+.05)
Tuesday, May 23, 2017
230.4
I am so happy with the way things have been going for me food-wise this month. I know that I have been complaining about the scale jumping around a lot. While it is always depressing to see it do that I have been trying to remind myself that I know my food has been spot-on and I am feeling GREAT. I am trying to remind myself that the scale jumping is just water weight fluctuating and just keep plodding forward despite those jumps.
There is a week left in the month, and I am down over 9 pounds for May. It's amazing! I haven't felt this motivated or on track for years. I know what the factors are that are helping me this time, namely: changing the 'rules' I follow; fully submitting to this process; changing the type of food I eat; and checking in to you to keep me on track. Mentally and physically (current cramps notwithstanding...) I am just feeling on target
I am really looking forward to hitting the hiking trails again on a regular basis too. I told myself that as soon as I am in onderland, I am going to start up exercise again. There is a lot of recent research that has found that exercising while being on a limited calorie diet actually is quiet bad for your metabolism and will slow actual weight loss down slightly. And the old addage "you can't out-exercise bad eating" is 100% true. Experts are saying when you have a lot to lose (I do!!) it is better to get it off quicker and then add exercise as you approach goal. On top of that, I am fearful that if I am on the trails with bad feet at 200+ lbs, I am going to be in more danger of having my planar fasciitis flare up and ruin my plans. but the truth is I am getting super antsy to get out there again! I miss exercising when it felt good to do so, I just know it will work against me right now.
In not quite as happy news, my melancholy over the death of Chris Cornell continues. I don't understand why this is happening to me. I feel like the depressed teenager I was when I was first listening to them back in the 90s has come raging back in full force. I suppose it doesn't help that I keep listening to his music pretty much non-stop and am watching old documentaries and reading interviews that feature him or that era. I suppose that this too shall pass. Until then, I will continue to weep at odd moments interspersed with belting out (very badly and off key) my favorite Soundgarden songs.
There is a week left in the month, and I am down over 9 pounds for May. It's amazing! I haven't felt this motivated or on track for years. I know what the factors are that are helping me this time, namely: changing the 'rules' I follow; fully submitting to this process; changing the type of food I eat; and checking in to you to keep me on track. Mentally and physically (current cramps notwithstanding...) I am just feeling on target
I am really looking forward to hitting the hiking trails again on a regular basis too. I told myself that as soon as I am in onderland, I am going to start up exercise again. There is a lot of recent research that has found that exercising while being on a limited calorie diet actually is quiet bad for your metabolism and will slow actual weight loss down slightly. And the old addage "you can't out-exercise bad eating" is 100% true. Experts are saying when you have a lot to lose (I do!!) it is better to get it off quicker and then add exercise as you approach goal. On top of that, I am fearful that if I am on the trails with bad feet at 200+ lbs, I am going to be in more danger of having my planar fasciitis flare up and ruin my plans. but the truth is I am getting super antsy to get out there again! I miss exercising when it felt good to do so, I just know it will work against me right now.
In not quite as happy news, my melancholy over the death of Chris Cornell continues. I don't understand why this is happening to me. I feel like the depressed teenager I was when I was first listening to them back in the 90s has come raging back in full force. I suppose it doesn't help that I keep listening to his music pretty much non-stop and am watching old documentaries and reading interviews that feature him or that era. I suppose that this too shall pass. Until then, I will continue to weep at odd moments interspersed with belting out (very badly and off key) my favorite Soundgarden songs.
Thursday, May 18, 2017
232.3
The day I tried to live
I'm having a fairly hard time this morning dealing with the news of the death of Chris Cornell. I've been off and crying since 4:30am when I saw the news on my twitter feed. Also having a hard time articulating all the reasons this is so rough. The Seattle grunge scene is what I was all about back in the latter part of High School, around 1990-1992. I had the best friends and the best times figuring out who I was back then and the music I listened to and the concerts I saw were a huge part of my identity. Another piece of that died last night. 1991 was an amazing year for music: Pearl Jam's Ten in August, Nirvana's Nevermind in September, and Soundgarden's Badmotorfinger in October. Can you imagine? It was glorious. I even almost moved to Seattle instead of San Francisco because of the music I loved and the movie Singles which I was obsessed with (it was about the Seattle music scene and Chris Cornell and Eddie Vedder both had small parts in it). Badmotorfinger remains one of my favorite albums of all time. In fact, I got a new car 3 weeks ago and that was the first album I blasted to test out the new speakers. I saw Soundgarden several times in concert; Pearl Jam opened for them at one of them LOL. Chris Cornell's voice was just as polished and perfect live as it was on studio albums. He was really blessed with talent. I also think he was one of the most aesthetically beautiful men I have ever seen and he was aging marvelously. Everything about him was up my alley (I wish -HAH).
I'm having a fairly hard time this morning dealing with the news of the death of Chris Cornell. I've been off and crying since 4:30am when I saw the news on my twitter feed. Also having a hard time articulating all the reasons this is so rough. The Seattle grunge scene is what I was all about back in the latter part of High School, around 1990-1992. I had the best friends and the best times figuring out who I was back then and the music I listened to and the concerts I saw were a huge part of my identity. Another piece of that died last night. 1991 was an amazing year for music: Pearl Jam's Ten in August, Nirvana's Nevermind in September, and Soundgarden's Badmotorfinger in October. Can you imagine? It was glorious. I even almost moved to Seattle instead of San Francisco because of the music I loved and the movie Singles which I was obsessed with (it was about the Seattle music scene and Chris Cornell and Eddie Vedder both had small parts in it). Badmotorfinger remains one of my favorite albums of all time. In fact, I got a new car 3 weeks ago and that was the first album I blasted to test out the new speakers. I saw Soundgarden several times in concert; Pearl Jam opened for them at one of them LOL. Chris Cornell's voice was just as polished and perfect live as it was on studio albums. He was really blessed with talent. I also think he was one of the most aesthetically beautiful men I have ever seen and he was aging marvelously. Everything about him was up my alley (I wish -HAH).
It makes the milestone of being back at a 100 lb loss this morning seem so insignificant.
Say hello to heaven, Chris.
Tuesday, May 16, 2017
233.6
I was fully expecting the scale to go back up based on the craziness this week, but nope! Down for two days in a row. What are the odds and how much do we all wish the answer was 100%?
I take at least 96-144 oz of water every day during the week while at my office (and that is on top of 1-2 c. of coffee and 2-6 c. herbal tea, not to mention whatever water I also have at home). I just can't seem to slake my thirst. I know that is a sign of diabetes, but my blood tests show that that is not the issue. It might be the amount of sodium I eat - I season my food pretty heavily and this might just the consequence. Just wondering if it is a weight-losing thing, or if I should bring it up to my doc...
I take at least 96-144 oz of water every day during the week while at my office (and that is on top of 1-2 c. of coffee and 2-6 c. herbal tea, not to mention whatever water I also have at home). I just can't seem to slake my thirst. I know that is a sign of diabetes, but my blood tests show that that is not the issue. It might be the amount of sodium I eat - I season my food pretty heavily and this might just the consequence. Just wondering if it is a weight-losing thing, or if I should bring it up to my doc...
Monday, May 15, 2017
235.2
You know what is super freaking annoying? When you are trying super hard to stay on track (and I am on track; 1200 calories a day of WFPB meals with just a little wiggle up to 1350 or so on Saturday) but your body decides that it just wants to play teeter-totter with the scale. Look at this nonsense from the last week:
05/08: 235.8 (-1.6)
05/09: 236.0 (+0.2)
05/10: 234.6 (-1.4)
05/11: 235.6 (+1.0)
05/12: 236.4 (+0.8)
05/13: 234.9 (-1.5)
05/14: 236.7 (+1.8)
05/15: 235.2 (-1.5)
That's a net loss of 0.6, which I guess is nice (but should really be closer to a loss of 2 lbs according to the records of what I was losing last time around on this many calories per day) but omg the ups and downs are SOOOOOOOO disheartening. I am working so hard on keeping things out of my mouth that I shouldn't be eating! I really want to see the evidence on the scale and not have to continually reassure myself that I am doing good things for myself.
BOO
05/08: 235.8 (-1.6)
05/09: 236.0 (+0.2)
05/10: 234.6 (-1.4)
05/11: 235.6 (+1.0)
05/12: 236.4 (+0.8)
05/13: 234.9 (-1.5)
05/14: 236.7 (+1.8)
05/15: 235.2 (-1.5)
That's a net loss of 0.6, which I guess is nice (but should really be closer to a loss of 2 lbs according to the records of what I was losing last time around on this many calories per day) but omg the ups and downs are SOOOOOOOO disheartening. I am working so hard on keeping things out of my mouth that I shouldn't be eating! I really want to see the evidence on the scale and not have to continually reassure myself that I am doing good things for myself.
BOO
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